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i kinda want to take some time to address something that i have been going through for a while. recently, i have been in what i have coined as limbo. for those who don't talk to me much, i have been battling Depression, anxiety, and anger issues for most of my life. however, i do my best to keep these issues out of my online life, as i really can't stand conflict that comes with them. however, lately, my issues have been a mix of good and bad. i have become a lot more stable in my life right now. my issues used to be all over the place, and it would cause extreme reactions on my end that made my life a real mess. however, lately my issues have sorta equalized, so i am a lot more calm and mellow, and i don't have as many extreme reactions.

however, that being said, the "limbo" is right now i am in a place where i am unable to progress with my life. while my issues are less extreme, they are hindering me more then ever before. my depression and anxiety have gotten me to a point where i am simply unable to do anything regarding working towards my future. i simply just don't have any confidence in myself to do so. i am so fearful of what i might mess up, it has become impossible to move forward at all. my anger has also come back with vengeance. when its not making me get angry at the ones i live most (for no reason i might add), it is torturing me by turning small, meaningless things into HUGE weights on me. i have found recently i am getting REALLY jealous of people and friends, when i didn't used to before. i see people and friends succeeding and doing well, and i get angry that i haven't been able to do the same. this has caused some friction between me and those people, mainly on my end. it has caused a fight with a dear friend of mine, and it has made it hard to talk with them. it has nothing to do with them, as they are one of the nicest and coolest people i know, so they have done nothing wrong. its all on my end. and its been eating my alive ever since the fight, as i don't want to feel this way towards them, but i can't do anything not too. the friend who i mentioned probably knows who they are, so if you are reading this, just know that i do care for you a ton. you have done nothing wrong, and i don't want you to stress over this. this is just a phase i am going through, and i am working to get it resolved to make things right again. please, just know that no matter what you do, you will always be my friend, so don't think this torture i am going through means anything is wrong between us.

anyway, these issues have made my life atm very hard. each day i feel some sort of pain. me and my family are working towards getting this fixed. we are seeking a new treatment to help with it, and i am hopeful. however, i just wanted to make this journal to let everyone know how i am doing, and to possible explain how i have acted lately. even tho i show almost none of this online, it has been bugging me for a while. i just want to get this out there to let all of my friends and fans know that if i do something that seems out of character, then this is probably why.

please, don't worry for me. don't feel sorry for me. right now my life is the best it has been in a while. i am just facing new issues as old ones resolve, much like all my life before. this is just the next challenge i need to take. it will be over eventually, and things will return to their happy normal ways. i want you all to know over everything else is i am doing my best to fight these issues, and that i WILL overcome them.

so with that, take care.
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Thanks for the watch! :P
Tue Apr 7, 2015, 5:58 AM
Thanks for the watch! :P
Wed Feb 25, 2015, 4:38 PM
Force yourself to draw!! That's how i get out of block <3
Wed Jun 25, 2014, 9:32 PM
also artist block sucks. i haven't been able to make anything i like for like 2 weeks. i need help yo!
Wed Apr 23, 2014, 2:15 PM
no one uses this thing anymore. why do i still have this on my page.
Wed Apr 23, 2014, 2:15 PM
After the socks, she's getting away with your house and half your belonging
Wed Jan 29, 2014, 5:46 PM
Hello! it's been a while .u.
Wed Jan 29, 2014, 10:02 AM
When you give her the pair of shoes, she'll probably...ask you for socks with them?
Tue Oct 1, 2013, 6:46 PM
if you give a girl a dress, she'll wan't some shoes to go with it. (help me continue this thing)
Wed Aug 28, 2013, 6:50 PM
*jumps through the window drunk* YOLO!
Thu Jun 20, 2013, 2:09 PM


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RuneTheRalts Featured By Owner 5 days ago   Traditional Artist
Though we barely talk
I just wanted to say
Happy thanksgiving
You mean so much to me
You've been the most awesome of friends, i don't know if i'd be here today without you
and i'm just so thankful for you as a person
thank you
Inkblot123 Featured By Owner 4 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
i appreciate your friendship as well. i know we don't talk much, but i treasure the moments when we do. you have always been so kind and nice to me, that you will always hold a special place in my heart. i hope we can find a way to talk more in the future, cause i do care for you quite a bit.
RuneTheRalts Featured By Owner 4 days ago   Traditional Artist
-hugs you tight- you're so super awesome Inky
Inkblot123 Featured By Owner 4 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
Runshin Featured By Owner Nov 14, 2015  Professional Digital Artist
150816 - Thank You-2 by Runshin  
Inkblot123 Featured By Owner Nov 15, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
no problem ^^
HEARTZMD Featured By Owner Nov 10, 2015
Nice creature designs.
Inkblot123 Featured By Owner Nov 10, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
thank you. your not too bad yourself ;)
pablocygnus Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2015
Thanks for watch XD
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